Although it's probably happened before, I can't think of another book that's ended with me feeling as though I'm a wiser person.
Gilead : A Novel by Marilynne Robinson is one long letter written from a father to a son. This letter was written over a period of time that wasn't specified but felt like a matter of 5 or 6 months.
The father writing this letter is a Reverend in his late 70's. It is written to his son, who is a small child. The Reverend has been told he has a heart condition and limited time. He is driven to write this letter by the terrifying thought of his son growing up and never really understanding who his father was. He starts out intending to share some of the lessons he's learned throughout the years but it turns into something much more personal.
This book is about forgiveness, understanding and the revision of history. Through the months the Reverend is writing this letter, he's faced with a ghost from the past he probably would have rather not seen before he died. We slowly learn the details of this mystery man as the Reverend comes to terms with the fact that, despite his faith, he has never been quite able to forgive him.
There were many things about this book that were compelling to me. First of all, there is a lot of religious business going on here. Although I believe there is no god (which, for the record, is different from not believing there is a god) and do become enraged by religious folks who do terrible things, I am not put off generally by religion. In fact, I have seen it do a lot of good for people.
That said, as he started quoting scripture I was concerned that I'd go through the entire book feeling preached at. Luckily, this wasn't the case. Instead I was fascinated as this man of the cloth admitted to all of the questions he had about his faith, the things he didn't understand and recounted in detail the great philosophers he'd studied (and agreed with), most of them atheists.
There was a particular memory the Reverend shared involving a trip he took with his father when he was a boy. They traveled through the drought ridden prairie of Kansas, by foot, during the Depression. For months they walked with no shoes, no food and no water. All to get to the Reverend's grand-fathers grave. It was extremely moving and almost brought me to tears at several points.
On a personal level, I was really struck by the writing style. I am typically a fan of very powerful prose that is aggressive and hits me over the head with strong metaphors and cynical outlooks on life. When I work on my own short stories or edit my novel, I've constantly got it in the back of mind that while I love the things I write, I will never write on the caliber of The Greats, I will never write profound and moving prose. I accepted that long ago and have focused on simply improving my craft as much as I can, without getting caught up in what I can't be.
This book, however, is the closest I've seen to a writing style similar to my own. While this book won the Pulitzer and I have no delusions that's in my future, it is heartening to know that even with limited dialouge and tight, simple prose, a work can be incredibly moving.
I hope I remember the lessons I learned in this book for the rest of my life.
9/10
YTD:
Books read : 4
Pages read : 1,359
Currently reading : Breakfast at Tiffany's - Truman Capote
"Our dreams of life will end as dreams do end, abruptly and completely, when the sun rises, when the light comes. And we will think, All that fear and all that grief were about nothing."
On being judged : "If a few people did make remarks, I just forgave them so fast it was as if I never heard them, because it was wrong of them to judge and I knew it and they should have known it."
"It was a beautiful thing to see, like something from a myth. I don't know why I thought of that now, except perhaps because it is easy to believe in such moments that water was made primarily for blessing, and only secondarily for growing vegetables or doing the wash. I wish I had paid more attention to it. My list of regrets may seem unusual, but who can know that they are, really. This is an interesting planet. It deserves all the attention you can give it."
"There's a lot under the surface of life, everyone knows that. A lot of malice and dread and guilt, and so much loneliness, where you wouldn't really expect to find it either."
"If someone came to the house and found me writing, generally he or she would go away, unless it was something pretty important. I don't know why solitude would be a balm for loneliness, but that is how it always was for me in those days."
"Thanks God for them all, of course, and for that strange interval, which was most of my life, when I read out of loneliness, and when bad company was much better than no company. You can love a bad book for its haplessness or pomposity or gall, if you have that starveling appetite for things human, which I devoutly hope you never will have."